Thursday, March 7, 2019

That Paddle And Our Journey





We have reached a place in our journey that both of us acknowledge as a big change. I crave the discipline. He likes the results and takes good care of me. It is a sweet time indeed. I am not sure why it is so difficult for me to write about spanking. After all, this is a ttwd blog. 

That leather paddle resides in Jack's sweater drawer nestled in with all that wool. It has seldom made an appearance in over a year. Now for two mornings in a row, this paddle has become the centerpiece of two big spankings. Ouch! I find it funny, not the two paddlings, mind you, but the fact that we are still learning our sixth year into ttwd. 

For quite a while, Jack has spanked with his hand...... a strong, powerful hand that can sting like fire. That paddle just remained in the drawer. 

I have not stopped thinking about both those spankings. Why? The paddle coming out is what really did it. Jack spanks and takes me to a place a little more than I can handle and then brings me up to his arms. This is not gg time, but discipline that in my heart, I do crave.  No, I am not crying when Jack brings me up, but my eyes are misty and close to tears. I feel his love on my backside. I lean into him and sigh relief that he has me and has stopped whatever has caused this paddling. 

Trying to explain this is hard. I love the gg playing, the playful swats, his hand firmly on my leg in the car, our meetups in the closet........ all of it. However, there are times I need something more and so does he. We have talked a great deal lately. I shared my thoughts with him and now with you. I simply crave the discipline, his strength and my leaning in. 

What I find impressive is that our ttwd is always changing. How about you? 

Meredith

BTW, this is post # 500. How did that happen?

26 comments:

  1. Meredith,
    Congratulations... on the 500th post, not for the 2 paddle spankings. Ouch is right!

    I think the TTWD often changes. For us, we find what works for a while and we get into a rhythm only to find that my physical, emotional, or sexual needs have changed. But, that desire for discipline is ALWAYS there. It was there years ago before I really knew it even existed.

    When we share about our need for discipline like you have here today, it can make us feel vulnerable and perhaps that is why spankings are difficult for you to write about here. But, that very vulnerability that we show to our husbands is at the heart of the whole ttwd thing, in my opinion. It is the initial admitting of it to our spouses, but every time we are bared and submit to the discipline/spanking, we are baring our sexual selves .... and there is something extraordinarily profound about it that satisfies us yet leaves us soon craving it again.

    Great post! You're making me think... and feel. It's good stuff! Congrats on hosting such a wonderful ttwd blog, Meredith. So many of us would not be here reading or blogging if not for you. Thank you for sharing even when it is difficult. Hugs, Windy

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    1. Windy,
      Thank you for your kind, supportive words. I really appreciate it as you already know. It is always my pleasure to announce people like you who add so much to out little corner of the internet. Thank you!
      M

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  2. Congratulations Meredith! 500 is quite a milestone to be proud of.
    I say thank goodness for this wonderful little blog of yours, it has done so much for so many, myself included. That I thank you for.
    As far as the revival of your paddle, that thing is something I complain about, never want, and try hard to avoid...BUT honestly, I couldn’t live without it. I am no different, the discipline part is important and I need it as much as I need the sexy, sweet gg’s, the fun swats, and all the rest. It makes me complete in some strange sort of way, and I’m forever grateful for my on-board guy, for you in my life, for this blog, and all that is ttwd.
    So, thank you for posting about your paddlings, about the changes in your ttwd, and sharing your life with us. Every bit of it matters. :) xo xo

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    1. Laurel,
      Thank you for your supportive, loving comments. You and I are right there together in how we think about all this. Here is to more long talks and walks.
      M

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  3. 500 posts! Way to go. Eric is home for a few days and I've been in a terrible place so I know what you mean. He and I both know I need it now - intense, mind altering, even some bruising. It's working but I wish we had that paddle you've pictured. We've been using HARD WOOD for two days now. Ouch!
    Amy

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    1. Amy,
      Are you back? Better yet is Eric back? Hooray. Thank you for your kind words. Let's "talk" soon.
      M

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  4. Congratulations on 500 posts Meredith! That is a wonderful milestone:)

    I get it, sometimes we need more. I'm glad you and Jack are talking, I don't think ttwd ever stops evolving.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Roz,
      You are correct........... sometimes we all need more for sure. Thank you for your comment.
      M

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  5. Congrats on the 500th post. I found your blog some time ago.(you could say I am a faithful lurker) You have truly helped me understand this stage in my life. I too crave that discipline and we are working thru our changes. Your posts help me so much . Mainly it helps to know I am not alone in this new found way of life.

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    1. Annon,
      This might be just the right time to write an email to me. Let's "talk".
      Thank you for your comment. It is apprecaited.
      M

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  6. Congratulations on 500 wonderful posts. I have enjoyed reading all of your words through the years. I rave the discipline and I continue to see our relationship changing with time. I feel lost when Ty is not here to make things better. You and Jack have been great role models for ttwd, you share the good and the bad and all the success. Thank you for blogging

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    1. Blondie,
      Thank you for your kind words. I value your blog as well. WE are both long standing bloggers and that feels good.
      M

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  7. Mere, this is one I can definitely relate to! I wrote a post a while back saying whilst fun spankings are lovely I crave discipline to keep on an even keel. Fortunately, Harry recognises when only a reset will do.

    Congratulations on your 500th post, an awesome achievement.
    Rosie xx

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  8. Rosie,
    I just went back to reread that post of yours. These guys of ours know how to schieve peace rather quickly.
    Thank you for your comment. I appreciate it.
    M

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  9. Congrats on 500 posts - quite an achievement.

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    1. Sunny,
      It means a lot to have you stop by.
      Thank you
      M

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  10. Wow, Meredith ... 500 posts! ... congratulations! It is a great accomplishment, one that I can only imagine as I struggle to write a first post in March. As you know, I have read your blog from one end to another. It reads like a story and a great one at that.

    Re changes ... it is good, is it not? ... that you are this many years in and still see and feel (:>)) change happening. Change is what keeps everything fresh and new. I am happy for you that you and Jack have found a new path to explore!

    Hugs ... nj

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    1. NJ,
      Yes, indeed, change is a very good thing. This new development is creating quite a stir here and I am loving it. Admitting to him tha I really need the discipline is so important.
      This week has been one of lots of discussion and loving. It really is something for two people so long married. So remarkable!
      Thank you for your comment!
      M

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  11. Congratulations! What a great post to commemorate reaching 500! I know everyone else has said as such -but I so get this. Good girl spankings are ust not the same as the whole discipline package. The voice, the instruction, the sting, the feeling of guilt being lifted. It's a need -- not just a craving -- an actually need. I'm glad Jack is meeting that need for you. How lucky we are to be married to men who "get it." Love watching you two from blogland. You give us something to aspire to. :) ~~shell

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  12. Shell,
    Bullseye comment! Thank you for knowing how much this means to me.
    M

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  13. We are definitely growing in our roles. Changes galore over here. It's a bit overwhelming at times but mostly it's some things are just becoming habits and he pays more attention so I pay more attention...or maybe I pay more attention so he pays more attention. Hard to know ;)
    Thank you for continuing to share. It's very helpful.

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  14. Deena,
    How sweet you are and I am glad things are going well for you.
    Thank you,
    M

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  15. Hi Meredith! :) 500 posts!! Wow! Congratulations!!
    That is some writing!šŸ„‚šŸ„³

    I completely agree with you about the discipline vs. gg spankings. There is a time and place for gg’s/gb’s (for some). There is nothing like working through whatever it is that runs the risk of creating havoc with a loving relationship. So much goes on in those kinds of spanking- getting back in sync, greater intimacy, a sexual tension of sorts, the feeling that the relationship matters, and so much more... especially love !! That’s how we are wired! Rob and I sure do love it!!

    Super post in celebration of your many posts! Thanks for bringing out some lovely bloggers too! Many hugs,

    ❤️Katie xoxo

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  16. For myself I needed to find a woman to take charge. The woman I married actually brought up being in charge before I could say anything. The first time I messed up, she sternly said, your getting a spanking. I had the shock look, but was soon over her lap, bare bottom and feeling the sting of her hairbrush. It hurt and it felt good, I knew then that I needed this woman to be in charge. Spankings, honey do list, wear pajamas all day, I do as told. The pajamas are after a spanking that I earned for really messing up and I wear them the rest of the day, no matter who might drop in. Going to bed early is also what happens. I accept, Love her deeply and my life could not be better.

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  17. life is always evolving isn't it as is every relationship? :-) glad you found what you need and are talking about it... Hugs

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  18. Well, I have been out of circulation for a while, but I am surely glad I did not miss this post, Mere. It is so true that we get complacent and think we have ttwd all figured out. But when we drift too far from those discipline spankings, we forget who we are, I think. We forget why we asked for this in the first place. And then we are lucky that our guy is there to remind us. All those happy and secure feelings flood back the minute the paddle finishes its work.

    This was just the perfect little post for me today. As always, thanks, Meredith.

    Hugs From Ella

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