Thursday, March 7, 2019
That Paddle And Our Journey
We have reached a place in our journey that both of us acknowledge as a big change. I crave the discipline. He likes the results and takes good care of me. It is a sweet time indeed. I am not sure why it is so difficult for me to write about spanking. After all, this is a ttwd blog.
That leather paddle resides in Jack's sweater drawer nestled in with all that wool. It has seldom made an appearance in over a year. Now for two mornings in a row, this paddle has become the centerpiece of two big spankings. Ouch! I find it funny, not the two paddlings, mind you, but the fact that we are still learning our sixth year into ttwd.
For quite a while, Jack has spanked with his hand...... a strong, powerful hand that can sting like fire. That paddle just remained in the drawer.
I have not stopped thinking about both those spankings. Why? The paddle coming out is what really did it. Jack spanks and takes me to a place a little more than I can handle and then brings me up to his arms. This is not gg time, but discipline that in my heart, I do crave. No, I am not crying when Jack brings me up, but my eyes are misty and close to tears. I feel his love on my backside. I lean into him and sigh relief that he has me and has stopped whatever has caused this paddling.
Trying to explain this is hard. I love the gg playing, the playful swats, his hand firmly on my leg in the car, our meetups in the closet........ all of it. However, there are times I need something more and so does he. We have talked a great deal lately. I shared my thoughts with him and now with you. I simply crave the discipline, his strength and my leaning in.
What I find impressive is that our ttwd is always changing. How about you?
BTW, this is post # 500. How did that happen?