Thursday, July 12, 2018

Too Many Titles Swirling In My Head





I always begin a post with a title. I always think of the title first and the rest of the post falls into place. Not this time........... I have many titles swirling around in my head. This post will bounce from one continent to an island across the pond. Too many things to share and I cannot keep it all straight. So let's start at the very beginning, a very good place to start. 


There are many titles popping in and out of my brain. 

Possible titles: 

The Husbands Finally Meet!

Across The Pond And Back

Why Can't Re-entry Be Easier? 

When You Think It Is Not Working, It Actually Is

When Ttwd Implodes And Then Comes Roaring Back



We have been in England for two wonderful weeks and have just returned. The weather was heaven and the things we enjoyed were many. Rosie and I have been emailing for quite a while about our plans while visiting. At Christmas, we were sent large maps of the area we would visit. Then she and her sweet Harry made an offer we could not refuse. They would pick us up at Paddington station and take us to our destination. We would have lunch at a lovely inn on the way. What a grand offer! They picked us up and whisked us away. Our husbands really got along well and the discussion in the car was lively and interesting. We stopped for lunch and then they delivered us right to our little cottage door. The next evening we hosted a little dinner party at a nearby restaurant to thank them for the lovely things they did for us. 

We had a great time hiking, enjoying cider, pasties, scones and clotted cream. Then it was time to go home. No Rosie and Harry for the journey back to London. The AC on the train did not work and the ride back was brutal. The flight home was long, just plain long. Once home, I went straight to bed even though the sun was close to setting. Completely bushed! And just like clockwork, Jack and I both woke up for morning coffee.......... at 3:45 am still on English time! Ugh! The day promised to be a long one and no nap in sight. The home front was my responsibility while Jack did the shopping. We were both tired early and the edginess was palatable. The evening dragged on even though promises of a sweet RA and loving had been made. According to Jack, I was snappish and sullen. I said I was just plain tired. Finally, the quiet between us was deafening. I told Jack I was going to bed. I was close to sleep when Jack pulled me from the bed and put me over the bed with panties still in place. He spanked hard and fast, no talking. He brought me up sputtering and wanting to have my say. Back over I went for more. Then he put me to bed and climbed in the other side and we simply went to sleep, not touching, spooning or facing one another. I turned away from him and was close to tears. I knew he was as tired as I was. Finally, sleep came and we were in a horrible place. What had happened? Ttwd imploding! 

Once again, we woke promptly just before 4 am. Silently, still, quiet, not touching, not acknowledging one another. My head was spinning! I got up and went to make coffee. Once the coffee was brewing, I cried right there next to the coffee maker. Jack makes our coffee with frothy milk and we still had a little wait. I went upstairs and found my husband sitting on the side of the bed motioning me to stand between his legs. He had been upset too, he said and had not slept well either. He told me that he had never spanked me as hard as he had last night. He had not liked my attitude or the way I spoke to him. I felt him taking down my panties and he spanked me softly standing right there between his legs. I then cried again. Our ttwd was in place and it wasn't going anywhere. It was right here between us so we could each feel its wonder and strength. 

Have you ever had a time where your ttwd implodes only to come roaring back? 

Meredith

28 comments:

  1. It sounds like you had a wonderful time away, and it’s so nice that you were able to connect with Rosie and her guy. That is just icing on the travel cake!
    The return is always tough, exhaustion takes over and truly, you are not yourself. When that happens I think it even makes reconnecting tricky at times. It has happened to us, the reconnect attempt, then the recovery of it! There have been times when I thought all was lost but what I should have been doing is trusting that my guy would bring us back, as you know it’s always right there for us to grab onto.
    I’m glad that Jack did that for you.

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    1. Laurel,
      I love when our men stop the situation and bring us back reconnecting and yes, we then recover and play things forward. Thank you for sharing.
      M

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  2. I love your titles, they all fit so well! Exhaustion is so horrible, so great that you got back on track.

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    1. Madeline,
      It is good to see you here. Thank you for your comment.
      M

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  3. Meredith,
    I went back and looked at my post titles and I figured that only about 1/5 of my titles did I come up with before I wrote the post. I almost always write the bulk of the piece before I am ready to give it a title. Interesting how we differ on that, huh?
    Unfortunately, I can very much identify with your ttwd implosion. Yes, it happens here, too. And it is absolutely awful when it does. However, I do believe that Storm and I come out the other side of it more determined to make the ttwd and spanking thing work. It's too big of a piece of our loving and intimate relationship to ever truly let it go. Thank you for writing this piece so that we readers and bloggers know that we are not alone even in those difficult moments when it almost seems like the ttwd is lost, but then we somehow save its life (or it saves ours), and flourishes even more beautifully than before.
    Also, your trip sounded lovely, but I am glad you are back. Welcome home, my friend.
    Windy

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    1. Windy,
      I have thought a lot about your email concerning this very same topic. I felt it important to readers to share those times when things go wrong, unsteady. Thank you for your insight. And yes, it is golden to be home.
      M

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  4. Both people being extremely tired and TTWD don't usually go well together. And my answer to your question is - constantly, for the past 12 years.

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    1. PK,
      I so value your comments. Sometimes it is all hard. Chin up!
      M

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  5. Hi Meredith. I am so glad you enjoyed your holiday. You timed it so well for the weather too! In answer to your question, yes. I think we all have. It's life and it's hard sometimes. Big hugs
    love Jan, xx

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    1. Jan,
      We loved England, the soccer, the weather, the delicious cider and all. Your country is so welcoming. Thank you for your insight.
      M

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  6. Hi Meredith

    So glad you and Jack had such a wonderful vacation and that you got to spend time with Rosie and Harry.

    Sounds like it was a tough readjustment back home this time, it is hard after being away. Glad all is now as it should be :)

    In answer to your question, it has happened here too.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Roz,
      I find comfort in other couples experiencing this off-the-rails time. Thank you for your insight.
      M

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  7. Mere, we agreed some time ago that a reset was pretty much a given on returning from a holiday. Add a long, tiring, journey home and a big time zone difference and you have the perfect storm. So glad the sweet reconnection wasn’t long coming and all was smooth again.

    I’d be very surprised if it weren’t something that happened to most ttwd couples at one time or another. It’s certainly happened here.

    Harry and I very much enjoyed our time with you and Jack. We look forward to the next time.

    Rosie xx

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    1. Rosie,
      Your words say it just like it is. The jet lag was hard this time. The perfect storm is no fun. Your insight is important to me.
      Jack and I loved our time with you and Harry. Our men seemed to enjoy one another's company. Let's keep planning.
      M

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  8. Your trip sounded perfect in so many ways!
    You actually made me tear up! What a great intuition You both have. Most people would stew and not try again. Jack went back in perfectly! Real TTWD is never perfect just like any real relationship.

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    1. Minelle,
      Tearing up works! It is love in the working for sure. Thank you for your comforting words.
      M

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  9. Yes, Mere, it has happened here, too. Nothing scares me quite like thinking that ttwd isn't going to work anymore. That would make me cry harder than any spanking.

    When I think back to our most trying times as parents, it almost always included an overtired child. The tantrum was horrific, and we wondered where our sweet, happy boy was. We expected it to be bad when they were tired and sleep deprived. Maybe we need to excuse ourselves when that happens, too.

    Glad it was a wonderful trip and that you have found balance and reconnection. There's no place like home and a good spanking.

    Hugs From Ella

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    1. Ella,
      What a great comment! It is comforting to know others make this walk. All is back on track now. There is no place like home.
      Thaks,
      M

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  10. Happy for you and Jack, Meredith, that you had a wonderful across the pond vacation and a fun time with Rosie and Harry. Sorry for you both, finding yourselves in that post travel vacuum again ... tired and cranky is a sure way to make things implode. Frank would have one piece of advice, as given to him by his father ... never go to bed angry ... we try very hard to adhere to that here but sometimes it gets forgotten in the heat of the moment. I truly felt your heavy heart but knew your Jack would work his magic to bring you back around ... hugs my friend! ... nj

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    1. NJ,
      WE went to be unhappy, exhausted and frustrated, but not angry. Yes, I was confused and stunned. Now all is well.
      Thanks,
      M

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  11. Your vacay sounds splendid - but oh that jetlag. Gets me every time.

    In answer to your question - i wouldn't say that TTWD imploded and then came roaring back. But we HAVE had flare ups or shut downs and THEN in came TTWD to the rescue. It's made it a lot easier to settle up and bring us both back "together" again.

    Glad you're sorted :)

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    1. Fondles,
      Thank you for your insight. We all want to be back on track.
      M

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  12. Crash Landing! That is the title I kept seeing as you were telling the tale! So glad you are getting back to your normal. Your trip sounds like it was everything you had hoped it would be and then some.
    Mignon

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    1. Mignon,
      Now crashing is not exactly a good thing! But it would make a good title.
      M

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  13. What a great trip! You guys always go on the best vacations. With health issues and Eric out of town, ttwd has imploded but I'm hopeful it comes back with a vengeance when the man returns. Bring it on.
    Amy

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    1. Amy,
      Even after all this time, I worry just beofre Jack brings us back. Good to have you back.
      M

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  14. Aw this made me a little teary. I do not like when there is tension between us and I could literally feel your tension through your writing. So glad that you have found your way to reconnect. Welcome home.

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    1. Deena,
      Yes, it was a very uneasy time, but it was brief. Good to hear from you.
      M

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