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I have changed and by a lot. On this my fifth LOL Days, I want to share my epiphany moment when I fully realized how much I have changed. Actually, my friend Laurel wrote what she saw in me.
I have written many times about being a military spouse of a reserve officer. When Jack was deployed to combat zones and here stateside for two years after September 11th, I kept those home fires burning. I was his equal partner. I handled all things on the homefront as all military spouses do. There were power struggles when homecomings happened. We worked hard to manage that struggle. However truth be told, Jack usually gave in to what I wanted for the sake of peace. We lived on the east coast for a number of years after the initial two-year separation. While living back east, we each had high powered careers which required dedication and long hours. We began that brother-sister period I have written about before ........ loving one another, but living without the magic and sexual fireworks of our early married years. We were always looking out at the many exciting things we did while living on the east coast. Homecomings always reignited those fireworks, but then things would slip right back into a two-career path. Our energy and focus were not on one another.
Enter ttwd and all that changed. As Laurel wrote, your experiences, your struggles, your story....... it was as if the two of you stood against the world, facing the chaos, and then turned toward one another. Your resilience, strength, compassion, faith and hope were now right there. Then I gave Jack my submission not needing to keep those home fires burning all on my own. Giving my submission to the one I love was a real epiphany. The epiphany is ......... giving Jack my submission and letting go of the control......... a true epiphany for me. His lead and his determination to keep me safe while loving me thoroughly became the foundation for our ttwd. My sincere gift of submission changed our marriage like nothing else. To pivot from controlling to leaning in certainly has its rough moments. Spankings do happen, but so do lots of loving and caring times. The longer we do ttwd, we know it is who we are not what we do.
Thank you, Laurel, for your ability to point out the obvious to me.
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