Monday, April 25, 2016
Ella's Magic Pill
Ella has asked a most interesting question. Really........ if you could change who you are, a spanko at heart, would you change that about yourself by the taking of a pill?
I have been a quiet spanko all my life. I have done the very same things Ella has written about. I poured over books, magazines and newspapers searching any and all mention of spanking. I remember the events of my growing up, when neighborhood kids told tales of being spanked. That did not happen at my house and I was happy about that. One childhood spanking was enough for me, earned, received and not pleasant, I was only spanked once around the age of seven.
Jack and I met in high school and I loved the way he was so much bigger than me. He was gentle and kind always and that has not changed. In our courtship, we did talk about spanking and he did give me a swat now and again. The wooden spoon in his back pocket incident really happened. I wrote about that very early in my blogging.
When we were both in big careers, we shared leading. This was fine until it wasn't. Usually things would just hum right along, but when there were bumps and clashes, no one led and no one followed. Stalemates were stagnant times and feelings were hurt.
When we entered our ttwd time, I was rescued from a depression that would have soon required medication. I was searching for something more and had no idea what it would be. Then I found ttwd. A closet spanko, I wanted more than the spanks in lovemaking or the spanks of just fooling around. I wanted someone leading and I wanted to be off the ledge of falling into a depression.
I really did not know that husbands could and would spank....... in love to help a wife in many ways. It really never occurred to me. Spanking could be fantasized about, but actually done to change things, I wasn't so sure.
When we began ttwd, we did a lot of talking. Jack said he was willing, more than willing to spank me. However, he would never ever hurt me. Sting my bottom, oh, yes, but never, ever hurt me. So we began. A fantasy was going to come true: my big loving husband would help me through the hormonal, sassy and disrespectful times and I would count on a stinging bottom. He said yes.
My submission and Jack's leading pulled us from the mundane and ordinary. Ttwd caused a mini revolution in our good marriage exploding it into a love truly on fire.
Would I take the pill presented by Ella's question and change any of it? No, never. Along with the spanking, comes fireworks of intimacy, a closeness and renewal of love, a doing away of the infamous side-by-side condo model that sweet Katie writes about. Spanking banished all of that side by side condo living. We are not brother and sister, but a loving, long time married couple enjoying the fun and results of spanking.
My spanko life had been kept under wraps for a long time. I scoured books and wanted more. Along came the internet and here we are. I have made wonderful friends who will be a part of my life forever more. I feel so satisfied in what Jack and I have made in our ttwd world and I love the fun, fireworks and magic in our ttwd world.
Would I take that pill that would then deny all the fun, all the intimacy? Married a long time, we were searching for something more and didn't even know what we were looking for. Finding ttwd is like finding gold. I will never give it back........ the gold is mine!