Saturday, May 30, 2015
Jack: "....... But I Do Know How To Fix It"
It takes me by surprise........ these mood swings of mine. I stew about something and just find myself ranting and, yes, even swearing about things that change, plans that do not work out, decisions made that I do not agree with. Stack these things up, and I do not do well. They seem to come at me all at once.
It happened just the other day. Plans were changed and I was feeling disappointed. I raised my voice to state my opinion. I did that a few too many times and laced it all with a few well chosen profane words. Raising my voice and adding some words not acceptable are surefire ways for Jack to step in big time.
Jack asked if I just thought that ttwd were just random letters in the alphabet or did they have any meaning to me. Was I thinking about the things I was doing or saying. I shrugged and walked away from him. I was upset and just wanted some distance.
He continued to watch and keep his eyes on me. He gave me several warnings and I became silent....... too silent. Some more time passed and things were at a stalemate. Jack wasn't happy and neither was I.
Finally, he said, " I do not know what is wrong, but I do know how to fix it. Let's go."