I know I have written many posts about the intimate discussions Jack and I have had in the car. Eyes forward, his hand on my knee, good talk! Scratch all that on this week-end morning. I found myself sitting a little too close! Let me explain.
We are heading out of town on a overnight adventure. I am so excited and we are now discussing the details about leaving home. Jack informed me that before we leave, he has an appointment that needs his attention. I first went quiet. Then I sulked. Then I began to argue my points about moving the appointment to another day. Things were getting tense and my voice was getting shrill. In the blink of an eye, he spanked my bare legs and I quickly pulled my legs away. He told me to put my legs right back where they were. I was wearing my skort as we were on our way to do an easy morning hike. Bare legs spanked and more promised if I did not settle down.
Jack drove on and talked about why his decision was final. If I could have rolled my eyes and gotten away with it, that is just what I would have done. No such luck! I listened, but was quiet. He asked if I would prefer to return home to continue this conversation over the bed. No, I said. I told him I accepted his decision, but I did not agree with the way things would go. Jack told me that was fine..... just so my attitude was positive and there was a smile on my face.
Sometimes this ttwd is so hard. We have not had many disagreements like this one............ small decision, but important to both of us for different reasons. Fuming and distancing would not go well for me. I accepted Jack's decision although I did not like it. We went on our hike. I changed my attitude to be more positive, but deep inside, I did not like it. Ttwd means kisses and sweetness and good girl spankings. Sometimes it means doing things his way when I do not like it one little bit and having to keep my thoughts to myself.
He thinks an RA would help keep things even keeled the morning we leave. I am not altogether sure what will happen. I do know that I am leaning in to what he wants and am still not very happy about it.