I hear the knocking. The door knob rattles. I hear the wolf breathing on the other side of the door. I am now in a different place since the last time the wolf was at our door. I became so spun up in the family drama. I wasn't sleeping. I was angry and upset. And I was spanked. The peace in our home was gone and Jack had had enough.
The wolf is back at our door. However, I am in a much better place this time. I lean into Jack and feel his strength.
We are in the kitchen and he is preparing dinner as I am making a salad. We are talking about the family situation........... the wolf at the door. He tells me to listen as he begins to tell me how things will go with this wolf at our door. I watch him. He is standing very straight. His confidence and assurance are evident. It is as if he is wearing his Hoh mantle. He wears his cloak so well that I smile and my eyes become teary. He pulls me close and tells me we will be fine. He tells me that he knows that this is hard for me, but he will guide me as I lean in. I surrender and submit to his words.
Usually surrender and submitting are words used in connection with spanking. Not this time! This time I feel the emotions of surrender and submitting right there in the kitchen. Surrender and submitting are not easy, but I surrender and submit to Jack's words. It is what Jack expects of me when that wolf is beating at the door. I learn to lean in and receive his protection and security in a situation that threatens the peace in our home.
Ttwd/dd has made a big difference in our marriage. The roles we have each accepted continue to agree with us. We meet the occasional bump in the road and spankings do infrequently occur. Far more important is what has evolved. Jack is the Hoh making the big decisions after seeking my input. I am the supportive wife following. He is generous and loving and I am respectful. We are just plain happier and in love after all these years. Ttwd/dd works so well for us. I am surprised that so little of ttwd/dd involves discipline spanking. We enjoy gg and RA spankings, but discipline spankings are few and far between. Ttwd/dd is about so much more. We are keeping the wolf at bay.