Tuesday, July 8, 2014
Lies, Whispers and A Tangled Web
I will be honest here. I am skittish, nervous, stunned and retreating if only just a little and only for a little while. It has not been an easy time for me. I am still in the stunned stage of it all.
I am trusting and giving in my life. I designed a blog to help me and others as Jack and I made our way in ttwd/dd. We chose blog names we love and when we are alone, we call one another by our blog names, Jack and Meredith.
When I began to blog, I so wanted to fit in. How was I ever going to get people to read my blog? How will readers find me when there are so many bloggers? I promised myself that honesty would be a cornerstone of my blog. However, there is post written last summer that was embellished beyond reason. Never proud of that post, I left it up to perpetually remind me that truth brings a faithful following. Fabricating a post would only lead to more trouble. I have been true to my relationship with Jack since writing that post. I t serves as a reminder to only me to tell the truth especially to myself.
Christina's blog along with Stormy's were the first blogs I read and I devoured them from start to finish. Both Jim and the Ogre were strict Hohs and that is not what I wanted. I was so interested to learn all I could about this woman named Christina.
I am reeling. I was not in Christina's circle. In the year I have been blogging, we exchanged emails twice and she wrote a comment on my blog on my first Love Our Lurker Day last November. I did write on her blog all the time: Emily's illness, her father's passing, her mother's passing and when her trials and tribulations got the better of her backside. I really feel betrayed, used and duped and I am saying that knowing we were not even remotely close. I do not think she ever read my blog as she never left any comments.
Many were her friend. Those people must be hurting beyond the pale. To be duped by someone you trusted seems most difficult. My heart goes out to those who have been hurt.
I have spent two days emailing behind the blog my ttwd/dd friends and we all have identical feelings. We are all stunned and feel duped. We are supporting one another the way we all do here in blogland. What else can we do?
So what is the truth and what is to be believed! I do know for a fact that CaliMom and I are real. We had lunch with our husbands and we have photos to prove it. The Internet is a slippery place. Lies, whispers and a tangled mess means truth evaporates. Do I trust the bloggers I have learned to love and care about? My answer is simple, yes. I am trusting, but when something like this happens, it really shakes me up. How about you?
I want to say to Rogue, Clint and Chelsea how very sorry I am for the hurt and devastation you feel right now. You will heal and hopefully trust again. There are many of us who are trustworthy.
I do not think you read my blog and that is fine. I offer my forgiveness and heartfelt concern that you are seeking the help of professionals and your friends. Be kind to yourself. Forgive yourself.