Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Submission---- Meredith-Style





We have been practicing ttwd/dd for almost nine months and this morning, victory was mine. It has been a long time coming. I am happy and Jack is very happy. 

Jack was annoyed with me on many fronts. I was busy and determined to do my own thing. We were headed out to lunch with good friends. Finally he cornered me in the master bath as I finished my make-up. He said he wanted my full attention. I stopped and turned to look at him. Then the firm, stern, quiet lecture began. I stood quietly soaking it all up realizing I deserved this talking-to. When he had finished, I was quiet and nodded. I said I was sorry and truly meant it. I was submissive and contrite. 

Nine months ago things would have been very different. If Jack had talked to me using that stern tone, I would have flipped out and a huge argument would have occurred. Sparks would fly and the one of those awful silence periods would follow. How long would the silence and arguing last......... trust me, I could keep an argument alive and well for a very long time.

Back from our lunch, I told Jack I wanted to talk. I sat on the ottoman in front of his chair. I told him again how sorry I was for my poor attitude. He told me that as he talked to me in the bathroom earlier that morning, he had watched my face. He said that if there had been any sign of defiance, he would have given me the hardest spanking ever. Instead what he saw was his wife's submission and acceptance of his firm words. He saw that I was contrite, respectful and apologetic. There would be no spanking. 

Do you know how hard I have worked to get to this point? I know that today I accepted what Jack said. I feel very good, but realistic that things may not always go so well. I just simlpy melt in his arms after times like this. I feel like I am falling in love with my husband all over again. I have this golden moment to tuck away. I will remember submission, Meredith-style.


Meredith

30 comments:

  1. Meredith, that is absolutely beautiful! You are applauded for working so hard to get to this point. Many blessongs on you and Jack! And may many more couples pursue the value of peace and harmony that can be achieved just as you too have. --SSB

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    1. Thank you for your kind words. Coming from you, they mean so much.
      Meredith

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  2. Yay! Hold on to this moment when things feel hard, as they sometimes will. You did it this time, you can do it again! And doesn't it feel wonderful to know how proud of you he is that you are respecting him even when he's not holding a paddle? :)

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    1. No truer comment has ever been made! Fingers crossed!
      Meredith

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  3. Oh Mere,
    I am so very happy for you! I love the serenity I hear in your voice, and the sweet place that you are in with Jack. And I agree with River Wild - the more you do this the easier it becomes - so just enjoy this wonderful feeling and snuggle up with your honey. :)
    hugs,
    Cali

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  4. Meredith.. what a wonderful testament to all of the hard work you and Jack have put into your relationship. You both have much to be proud of. I can just see the confidence you have. You are a wonderful example of how to reach the end goal. Submission. While you celebrate this achievement, I am just embarking on my journey. I will continue to look to your words of encouragement and advice. Well done...

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    1. Have courage with your own journey. I am rooting for you.
      Meredith

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  5. Congratulations Meredith! You did great. Now...I want you to bookmark this post and if you start to feel as if you can't...come back and read. ;)

    Blessings...
    Cat

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    1. Cat, I always feel honored when you comment on my post. I so value your opinion. I will bookmark this post.
      Thank you,
      Meredith

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  6. Meredith, what a lovely post! I am so, so happy that you've made it to this place in your relationship. Jack (and yourself) must be so proud of you! You are such an example to me. I can't wait to someday be where you are in this moment. You are never expected to be perfect, but it is wonderful when perfection is attained - even if it is for that short moment in time. So awesome. xoxo

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  7. Great post Mere,
    I struggle with natural submission..I'm pretty sure I don't have any ;) It's those times like you write about, when it comes so naturally that I wish I could bottle up forever :) It's such a great feeling.

    Love, J

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    1. Jennelle,
      Thank you for being there in so many ways.
      Meredith

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  8. This is such a good read, well done Meredith!
    You are right to understand that it won't always be this way but you know how it feels and how happy you are with it so you will be able to find it again.

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  9. Hi Meredith, what a lovely post, and what a good girl you are. Long may it continue
    love Jan,xx

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    1. Jan,
      I really liked the good girl feeling.
      Meredith

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  10. Aww that is great news. Glad it went so well. It's wonderful to feel that submissive feeling and realize how far you have come.

    hugs
    sara

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    1. Submission feels great when I embrace it.
      Meredith

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  11. I love that feeling of falling in love all over... :-) Very sweet post. Hugs

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  12. Sounds very lovely indeed. I love little moments like that.

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  13. Oh Meredith, how wonderful! :) And what a beautiful way he put how he saw your submission. :) I am so glad that you were able to have this moment. Yes, there may be times where your submission is not always so easy to reach, but keep rejoicing over the times where it wins. :) You are growing so much, and I love to hear the joy in your words.

    {{{hugs}}} EsMay

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  14. I love this!!!!
    For me, the only thing I'd add is...during lunch, I would want to know his 'looking' at me to truly 'be good' and if I wasn't....the ONLY way to be effective and 'prove' you're in control....is to actually handle me once we are home if I've not toed the line YOUR way! - I want this in the worst way!!!! At least I'd know he was serious. (And oh! My Love is SERIOUS sometimes. No don't!)

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  15. Awww...this is such a sweet post. I wonder if I will ever get to this point. We've been at this since last September, but we've really struggled and are currently recovering from a huge relapse into our old ways. You have given me hope!

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  16. I love this post, M.
    I'm just here on your blog reading some of the posts that I read back in April before I knew you and it makes me think of why I wanted to get to know you better. This one is a really good one. And, yes, I now know how hard you have worked to get to this point with Jack. Windy

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