Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Not For The Faint Of Heart
A month is a long time to go without the paddle. The last time Jack used the paddle was a month ago. Mellow has been my middle name. Smooth and easy, calm and sweet.......... then we hit a bump. Even keeled Jack was steady. I was in a funk about all the things we were doing that were taking away from what I wanted to do. Attitude was festering and I told Jack I did not like how we were using our time. Evening time was spent with a constant flow of friends and family through our home. Entertaining takes time and I wanted my time used for other things. I told him I was unhappy and he said toughen up. I said this and that and he said my attitude needed changing. I could change it or he would help me change it. I shrugged and walked away. The day continued, but my attitude remained the same........ grouchy, irritable, sassy and getting worse. Finally Jack had had enough. Upstairs we went and I was paddled. We did more talking with that paddle right on my backside. He talks and I answer. If my answers are not to his liking, he continues the spanking. Slowly we worked things out and it was over.
We have been doing RA spankings which we both think work well for us. However, this spanking was no RA. Sass and attitude build. Frustration with no time to talk things out festers. I know I was on a collision course with the paddle and I could not stop. The longer we went, the more the attitude crumbled.
Living ttwd/dd is hard and not for the faint of heart. Our gentle dd sometimes isn't so gentle. Sometimes I settle back and think of what we are doing. In many ways, we have fallen in love all over again. I have relinquished control and I have given Jack my submission. After this hard spanking, I know that I slipped and became a less than submissive wife. Jack literally stands back and watches. Then he simply takes care of things by pointing upstairs.
Bring back the mellow, smooth and easy. Things are sweet now. It always amazes me the benefits of a spanking once you get past the sting. Things are right in my world and I know I am loved.