Sunday, December 1, 2013
This long Thanksgiving time finds us with family far from home. The visiting was great and all we did was fun. Living in a hotel for a week was not at all fun. We really could not be ourselves. Returning to the hotel late at night and getting up early to join family for another day's adventure was fun, but this schedule left little time for us.
Jack complimented me on how I was handling things. He said he was pleased with my leaning into his decisions. Smooth and sweet until.............. on our almost last morning here, I barked orders and was snippy. Jack was quick to spank, hard and fast despite paper-thin hotel walls. Once again, I was totally surprised by this spanking. I had not realized how bossy I was. Jack was right there "to take care of things". After the short spanking, I melted into his arms and apologized. He said that the bossiness needs to go and he will spank it away whether we are home or away.
So now over six months in to ttwd/dd. and another time away from home, I am doing better at knowing what my husband expects of me and am aware that if needed, reminders will come my way. I find it very reassuring and safe to know that this sweet surrender is so right for me to accept. I love the way it makes me feel. I feel loved and care for in so many ways.
We are home the day after tomorrow. When we are home and privacy is ours, I know we will have that delicious time to ourseleves and do the reaffirmation Jack and I both think is really important.