I feel like whispering because if I say it out loud, the smoothness becomes real bumpy. Jack is taking care of things. For the most part, I am accepting his guidance and decisions. The shakedown time is over. Things are different here. What has changed is me.
Flipping out creates a sideshow here. I have done that twice in the last few weeks. Jack took care of things. He spanked and then spanked again. Because I know what will happen, I find myself checking what I say and what I do. I remember that calm and serene are best and usually act accordingly.
We do a lot of talking. In fact we do way more talking than spanking. Communication is especially essential. The two places we do the most talking are in the car and under the covers. Jack talks the language of ttwd/dd like no one else. He tells me what would happen to my backside if .................
This talk that he does really turns me on and results in my listening and following what he says to do.
The best line Jack gives me is "You choose....... you can lean into what I say or what I want you to do or you can lean over the bed". He says. "You have the bottom and I have the paddle".
This talk so settles me and focuses my behavior, talking and thinking. So we continue to do role affirmation spankings, good girl spankings and lots of spanks during the day as we go about things. I won't say things are smooth because saying that causes things to go crazy here. We are just living a ttwd/gentle dd life. It works for us.
Jack is a gentle HoH who is strong and determined to keep the peace in our home. There is strength in his gentleness and he is always so good to me. He knows what I need and he gives me what I need.
Something else has happened in a sweet, gentle way too. We have been married a long time. Yet at this time, we feel more intimacy than at any other time in our marriage. It is like we are falling in love all over again only this time we are wiser and older. At a time when other marriages crumble or husbands and wives lead separate lives, Jack and I are very much in love and are very sensual and responsive to one another. He wants me in lovely lingerie and compliments me concerning my body. He does see my backside sometimes a little too much, but he really likes my new submissive nature. He says he likes when I step back and accept his way. He says it surprises him when I accept this new way. I don't argue. I remain calm. I am leaning into what he wants. I am still whispering these words because when I say them out loud, the smoothness can evaporate.
Does that happen to you too?